Thursday, December 6, 2012

Don't they know it's the end of the world.


Clueless. Girl, Interrupted. Eight Mile.

Her films defined a generation. But when your career hits a snag, the Midas touch of Hollywood turns to ash within the blink of an eye.

With rumors of prescription drug abuse and anorexia, the film offers stopped coming. She clung to whatever independent or low-budget movie she could score, no matter how terrible the script.

She fell in love with a con artist, who flaunted himself as a rich, powerful producer with connections. After they married, the financially struggling actress was paying off her unemployed husband's debt.

In the final two weeks of her life, she was so sick with pneumonia, her lips were blue. She could barely breathe. Yet she was still playing nurse to her ailing mother and husband, who were also sick. Her domineering husband convinced her that they didn't need a doctor.

One afternoon, she was on the floor, unable to breath, her face turning blue. She refused to go to the emergency room. Instead, she told her mother she was going to die. Nobody called 911.

Five hours later, her prediction came true.

After her death, the bitter reality became painfully obvious: If Brittany Murphy had seen a physician at any point before her death, she wouldn't have died. By not seeking medical help, Brittany Murphy had essentially killed herself.


I've always seen myself as one of those 'show people.' My earliest memories are wanting and needing to entertain people, like a gypsy traveler who goes from place to place, city to city, performing for audiences and reaching people.

 
Everybody has difficult years, but a lot of times the difficult years end up being the greatest years of your whole entire life, if you survive them.


God forgot to give me the jealous bone.


I'm a giver. I have learned to be selective of the people in my world, because if I love someone, I will give them my blood, whatever they need. In doing so, one can end up with little left for themselves. It's a lesson in self-preservation that I'm still learning. If you don't have yourself, you have nothing to give.



I don't even take myself seriously, so how could I possibly take Hollywood seriously?


I have always wanted to be really tall for a day. That's kind of a superficial thing. I'm 5'3, but for one day I would love to be 5'9 and tower over everybody.



 I can't believe that people actually know my first and last name. I think it's really, really, gosh-darn neat.


 I think to call my mom and I best friends is almost an insult to our relationship. She's the greatest in the whole wide world, and I don't feel closer to anyone. She's a pillar of strength, and she doesn't flaunt it. She has this will - she just knows she can get through things. It's inspiring.
 

It's easy to get wrapped up in sharing everyday life with a partner. It's fun to get lost in love and romance. It's the best. But holding on to yourself while doing that is the most important thing.

 
I would like to be very, very, very, very old.

29 comments:

  1. Brittany Murphy. She always seemed a little "spacey" to me, that poor lost girl. Didn't her husband die of the same disease a few months after she did? What a terrible waste... Nicely written, Jenny. Veronique (French Girl in Seattle)

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  2. Definitely one of the sadder celebrity deaths! She was such an incredible actress so it was awful when the news hit.

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  3. I was so shocked when she passed away, she always looked like the happiest little thing in the world...so sad.

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  4. I remember I saw her picture on a blog of "We will miss these actors" and I was like What?!?!?! She isn't dead? She can't be dead? I went to google and saw the headlines. I can't remember the last time I had cried that an actor/actress had died, but when I found out she had I really cried. She was definitely in every defining a generation movie for the past 20 years! People have told me I look like her for years & even have called me Tye in the past from her role in Clueless. She was a lil bit of my idol because I wanted to be an actress too when I was younger. This is just horrible that she is no longer with us and it COULD HAVE BEEN PREVENTED!!! That kills me, it really does. Such an unnecessary death...R.I.P. Britanny Murphy...I hope she is at peace.

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  5. I miss Brittany Murphy. She was so amazing.

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  6. I've read many articles about her death. It still haunts me. She was one of my favorite actresses. I loved her personality and that she was a skinny little stick like me. When I was in high school, I looked up to her. I was in drama classes and in some school plays...acting was a big deal for me. She was one of the actresses I'd look up to for inspiration. I always admired how she was so beautiful and funny.

    The thing that freaks me out is that in her last movie, her character died in a bathroom. In real life she died in a bathroom. What are the odds of that? I mean, what the fuck?? And then her "husband" died the same way she did. Smells fishy to me. Maybe they took him out to shut him up about what he knew about her? Hollywood is fucking SICK. There are way too many coincidences when it comes to celebrity deaths.

    Brittany's husband should have done the right thing and called 911...if he really cared about her.

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  7. Love the quotes, but the last one is just very, very sad. I remember hearing about her passing, very well, but I never knew the husband/mom back-story. That just makes it so much more awful.

    ...and..on that note...I hope you have a great weekend!

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  8. That last quote is absolutely heartbreaking.
    xo Josie

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  9. Such a sad story. I liked her. I gravitate toward quirky people because I identify with them.

    You are very personal in this post and I want to applaud you for that courage.

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  10. I don't know much about her - wasn't she married to some hairy drug addict who may have been (gosh British) and um also died soon after? - oh feel free to leave hugs and kisses any time you xoxo

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  12. It's too soon for her death. Such a terrible waste. I guess she got into a bad habit like her husband who dies later on. R.I.P Brittany.... Nicely written by the way. Thank you for visiting my blog.

    xo
    Sam
    http://fabulouspetite.blogspot.com

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  13. I didn't realise the truth behind her death... wow... so sad and tragic. Her death definitely came as a shock and could have been prevented, she has so many wonderful years of acting in front of her too.
    I still remember her from her Clueless days.
    x.o.x.o

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  14. ive seen her movies, just cant remember the exact titles.
    I didnt even know she died, what a crap way to end a life:(

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  15. Tragic. She had a very fun vibe about herself.

    Crazy & Co.

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  16. Loved this, per usual.

    And I agree -- Being grounded in yourself, as fully as you can be -- is a sure way to stay healthy until you're 100. :)

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  17. Her story was so unfortunate, I remember reading about it in the news. I really liked her as a actress and miss her quirkiness.

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  18. So sad, I will always remember her role on Love and other disasters she was just gorgeous, really awful to see this things can still happen nowadays.
    Well written Jenny she would feel really honoured with this entry.
    Kisses

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  19. Her story was a very sad one, indeed. I thought she was super sweet and a fun actress on screen. It's sad to hear that she wanted to live to be very, very old.

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  20. i loved her to pieces. such a beautiful girl and talent. her life was so tragic and confusing. i pray she's in a peaceful place.
    http://www.averysweetblog.com/

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  21. Never knew the story of her death, but it is tragic indeed.

    On a side note, I hate that some people become 'martyrs' after their death. Take Michael Jackson for example. People ridiculed him, coined him as "Whacko-Jacko", and he was the quintessential poster child for all things creepy. I didn't know anyone who actually liked MJ, and continued to bash him, yet, the minute he died, the entire world went into mourning. Whaaaa? I guess death is the only redemption. *shrugs*

    Heath Ledger's death is the one that shocks me the most, and the one that is the most tragic for me. Paul Newman's death was the only one I cried at.

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  22. Oh, the last comment got to me. Her death was so sad. So completely preventable. I wonder why no one helped her?! Especially her own mother who apparently was so much more than a "best friend". The news of her death shocked me. She really seemed to be going through some hard times.

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  23. I really liked her, I thought it was such a sad story and I hate to see Hollywood seem to eat fragile people up.

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  24. I think about her and her death all the time. I blogged about her once for my Lady of the Week. Her whole death was fishy and didn't her husband and mom have something going on after? I hate that he ruined her. She was so unique and special. I hate wasted talent. I think about her and Heath Ledger the most, I think.

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