Journalist. Mother. Bunny enthusiast. Pop culture junkie.

Journalist. Mother. Bunny enthusiast. Pop culture junkie.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Love, love, love



With a broken laptop, it's going to take me a while to get back to each and every one of you. But I just wanted to thank you all for being so supportive and kind to me these past couple days.

Just reading your comments makes me feel a million times better than I did before, simply because its showing me a lot of you can relate and a lot of you care so much.

Blogging has helped me in so many ways, it is unbelievable. I started it as a place to journal my thoughts and feelings. It ended up being a way to make the most incredible and amazing friends all over the world. For that I am truly grateful.

Thank you for giving me the good kind of tears (hehe) and showing me I'm not alone. In fact, some of your comments really gave me confidence to think in another direction, which I was not expecting...and that is awesome.

I am still sad and confused right now and trying to figure out what to do in terms of EVERYTHING going on.

I will keep you updated, of course. But I just wanted to say thanks very quickly right now.

I love you! xoxoxoxo

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Blog, interrupted.

I know I'm going to regret this later, but I really feel like this is necessary.

I need to vent.

If you have been following my blog long enough, you already know what a terrible year it has been for me so far. I was laid off from my job in January, lost a friend to suicide, and now am quickly running out of funds as I struggle to find a new job. Oh, and my laptop and my phone broke twice in the last month.

I always wondered how many more punches I could take from life before I finally unraveled. Now I know.

For the past three weeks I have been incredibly sick. I caught a coughing illness from my parents. They had it for a month before getting over it. Mine seems to be getting worst. I wake up in the middle of the night coughing so deeply it hurts and choking on air. It's almost like I have so much oxygen in me, I'm suffocating on it. I have no voice. I'm going to have to see a doctor all over again, which I can barely afford right now.

I would be able to handle that if it were not for another major blow in my life.

My relationship is hanging by a thread right now.

If this thread breaks, I will have to move back home to another similar situation.

Its funny how girls end up dating guys who are exactly like their fathers.

What's even worse is that I truly don't feel like I have that many people to turn to right now.

I can call my friends and they would sympathize, of course. But that's all they can do.

Nobody can save me. Nobody can pick me up and carry me away and make everything feel better. I have to do that myself, I guess.

But I'm exhausted. And I'm sad. And it would be so nice to fall asleep and never wake up. But don't worry, I'm not going to do that. I love my mom too much to do something so stupid.

I'm just here. Wishing I could be somewhere else. Waiting for something happy to happen before I break apart...

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Television hotties

Have you ever watched a television show and thought "wow, I wish I could meet a guy like that!" or perhaps you just wanted to jump into the screen and smother the character with kisses? Er, I mean....give him a friendly hug...ahem, anyway.

I have.

Just out of pure entertainment, and because I know you have spent sleepless nights wondering, I decided to share with you my top five television crushes.

(Warning: These are random. I am not a typical girl.)


Brandon Walsh (Beverly Hills, 90210)



Oh, Brandon, Brandon, Brandon. The nicest boy in Beverly Hills. This Minnesota native is just an honest, wholesome boy-next-door who can make your heart melt with a smile, but also race with a kiss. What girl wouldn't want to gaze into those liquid blue eyes all day? Plus, he just wants to do the right thing, gosh darn it. In Every Freaking Episode. Because all that matters in life is that everything is fair. Sigh.
Bonus: His family is rich.
Drawback: Would you be able to concentrate on Mr. Nice Guy when his hot bad-ass friend Dylan is around?


Jack Tripper (Three's Company)


This adorable chef is so goofy and hilarious. I've seen every single episode of this show (my parents own the DVD collection) and in each one Jack makes me giggle like a 13-year-old school girl. How can someone so handsome and funny be such a sweetheart? Well, it helps that in real life the actor, John Ritter, was said to be pretty comparable to his famous character. So not much acting was required. That makes me love Jack Tripper even more!
Bonus: He's a man who COOKS. Need I say more?
Drawback: He lives with two gorgeous girls.


Mike Delfino (Desperate Housewives)


Forget the gossip. Forget the fact that Gabrielle Solis is my soulmate. Forget the delicious scandals. Mike Delfino is the main reason I want to move to Wisteria Lane. Move over, Susan. He's mine. Well, in my dreams. Haha. But since I can't be on the show, I guess she can have him. But what a lucky, lucky woman she is. I personally don't see what harm there would be in letting him do each episode shirtless. But apparently ABC doesn't agree and they've ignored my petition. Shame on them.
Bonus: He will never cheat on you.
Drawback: He's a plumber.


Jim Halpert (The Office)



Every time this paper salesman gives a wary or amused glance to the camera, our eyes meet and my heart skips a beat. He's the most normal guy at Dunder Mifflin and probably one of the silliest and cutest guys on television these days in general. And puh-lease, don't tell me you haven't spent restless nights fantasizing that it was you, not HER, he was marrying...right? You have done that? Right???
Bonus: Your parents will love him.
Drawback: Pam.


Andy Griffith (The Andy Griffith Show)


Don't laugh. I know he's like a bazillion years old right now, but back in 1962 this guy was quite the catch. Plus, who wouldn't want to cuddle on the porch with a dashing southern gentleman, while he plays the guitar and Aunt Bea brings you a cup of freshly squeezed lemonade?
Bonus: He has an adorable and well-behaved son named Opie. If you're going to be a stepmother, that's the kid you want.
Drawback: Andy's closest companion, Barney, is kind of a nut job.


So what television studs (or female hotties) are YOU crushing on?

Thursday, February 25, 2010

If I were...

A little while ago, my dear friend Barry at Life in Quotations filled out this survey. I adored it so much, I had to fill it out myself...

Here it goes...

If I were a month, I’d be June.
If I were a day of the week, I’d be Friday.
If I were a time of day, I’d be 5 p.m.
If I were a planet, I’d be Saturn.
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a pink dolphin.


If I were a direction, I’d be right.
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a chaise.
If I were a liquid, I’d be champagne.
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a sapphire.
If I were a tree, I’d be a cherry tree.



If I were a tool, I’d be a blade.
If I were a flower, I’d be a cherry blossom.
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be stormy.
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a mandolin.
If I were a color, I’d be fuchsia.



If I were an emotion, I’d be longing.
If I were a fruit, I’d be a cherry.
If I were a sound, I’d be a crashing wave.
If I were an element, I’d be fire.
If I were a car, I’d be a vintage Mercedes Benz.



If I were a food, I’d be a pink cupcake.
If I were a place, I’d be the beach.
If I were a material, I’d be tulle.
If I were a taste, I’d be delicious.
If I were a scent, I’d be jasmine.



If I were an object, I’d be a roller coaster.
If I were a body part, I’d be your lips.
If I were a facial expression, I’d be your smile.
If I were a song, I’d be The Fear by Lily Allen.
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be jeweled sandals.



What would you be?

PS. Today is Barry's birthday. Happy birthday, sweetie!
PPS. Check out my guest post over at Tales of a Wondering Star!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Thank You

I hope you are all having a great week!

Mine has been kind of miserable because for the past week I have been so SICK! I cough all the time and lost my voice. So not cool.

On a happier note, I discovered that my wish post from last week received more than 100 comments. Not sure how that happened, but I like it! Haha.

Anyway, I received a few fabulous blogging awards that I wanted to share.

First up, I received the Haute Mess award from Imogen over at Tia Cherie. Thanks, sweetie!



With this award, I have to list seven of my favorite things and pass it on to seven other fabulous bloggers.

Hmmm....my favorite things:

1. My blog (yay!)
2. Snuggling with Rian (awwww)
3. Good face days (I know, right?)
4. Diet Dr. Pepper (addicted, really)
5. My sapphire and diamond ring (present to myself two years ago)
6. Hummus (omg)
7. My wicked digital camera (courtesy of Rian and my mom two months ago)

And the bloggers I pass this award along to are:

1. Her Armoire (Betz is adorable!)
2. Twenty Somethings (this blog is such a gem)
3. Fabulous! (pasta not included) (Nikosmommy always makes me smile)
4. Getting Fit and Loving It (Sandy is one of the most inspirational women in my life)
5. Tales of a Wondering Star (one of the coolest blogs EVER)
6. Fashion Court (Love, love, love!!)
7. Melanie's Randomness (Mel is quite possibly my blogging soulmate)


Then, Fashion Court and Imogen gave me the Sunshine Award. Thanks girls! xoxo



I am giving this award to:

1. Life in Quotations (true sunshine in my life)
2. Minute by Minute (please check out this blog, it's amazing)
3. In Bug's Drawers (gorgeous girl and fabulous outfits...need I say more?)
4. Cut and Dry (you'll love it)
5. For the Love of Stilettos (I just discovered this lovely blog!)
6. Leah (one of the most beautiful bloggers I know)
7. As I Wrote One Day (magical, beautiful, inspiring)

And last but not least, Debbie over at GirlWhimsy gave me the following award:



Thanks, Debbie! Make sure you go check out her blog because it's simply stunning.

I am going to pass this award along to all of YOU because I adore each and every one of you. Your blogs and comments always exceed my expectations. :)

Friday, February 19, 2010

Enamor Magazine



There is a new fashion magazine on the block.

You can view the premiere issue here.

I adore Enamor, but I have to admit I am a little biased. I have two articles in it. I am a staff writer for this labor of love.

So in order to help celebrate its launch, I decided to share a little of its history with you and introduce you to the girl behind it, my dear friend Morena. You can see her blog here.


Isn't she a doll? I met this incredibly intelligent 15-year-old more than one year ago. She was my first blogging friend and I always assumed she wasn't that much younger than me. I was amazed to find out she was a decade younger! Despite the age difference, we quickly became close friends.

I was lucky enough to even visit her out in Los Angeles last summer. If things go according to plan, I should be visiting her again this summer. Yay!


(me, Morena, and her friend Avalon)


I recently conducted an interview with Morena regarding Enamor and how it all got started.

Here it is:

1. When did your interest in fashion start? Why?
I grew up seeing my mom sketch her original designs. My mom doesn't work in fashion but she's always had an interest for it. She would always watch episodes of TLC's "What Not to Wear," which is now one of my favorite shows. With my mom's interest, I developed my own passion for the industry. At first I adored the beauty aspect of it all, but as I got older I realized that fashion is much more than that. It's an art that imitates life. As society changes, fashion changes.


2. When did you come up with the idea for Enamor Magazine? What inspired you to start the magazine?
Over the summer I really needed to start a project. I had not much to do so I literally just thought one day, why not a magazine? I was actually inspired by Rachel Zoe's hunger for fashion, and her ambition to do something about it. So I did something to satisfy my hunger as well.



3. Describe Enamor Magazine. What is it about?
Enamor Magazine is a fashion magazine. That's what it is in a nutshell. But you know what it really, truly is? It's the passion of three young girls, translated into glossy pages. Do you want to hear a secret? This issue of Enamor was produced with no money at all. We happen to have a great amount of luck, and a handful of people who believe in us. That's what it took to produce this 50 page publication.



4. Starting this project at such a young age is really incredible. How did you even begin the process? What are some challenges you have faced?
I knew I could not go at this alone, so I approached my amazing friend Taylor Becnel. She's Co Editor-at-Large for Enamor. I approached her because I knew she loved fashion as much as I did, not knowing what a huge help she would end up being. She then introduced me to the other Co Editor-at-Large Kara Gonchar. Kara's my whole New York base. She helped shoot two of the four editorials in the Premiere Issue. Honestly, although we got into countless arguments, this issue of Enamor would not exist without Kara and Tay.


5. You once told me you hoped to be the next editor-in-chief of Vogue. Is this still true? What are your future goals?
Of course it's still true! In terms of the short term future, I would like to keep successfully running Enamor. In the more distant, I'd like to attend NYU and Columbia for post-grad. And then of course, I'd like to intern at Vogue. We've all got to start somewhere right?



6. With school, ballet, and modeling, it seems you were already an extremely busy high school student. What was it like starting a magazine on top of all that? How do you juggle everything?
This was probably the most difficult aspect of it all. I recently started pursuing my interests in the dance world. That's all I wanted to do. Seriously. And (it's confession time) this is why Enamor took so long to launch. This issue should have been out months ago but I just didn't have that balance in my life and I procrastinated, to say the least. I think I've got it figured out by now. But I'm pretty sure there's many more lessons to be learned. I like learning though, so I'm not anticipating any negative experiences.



7. A lot of people think fashion is frivolous. What do you have to say about that?
Oh, well it probably is. But there's people that love this industry so much, and there's people that don't understand it. For those who don't understand it, there's still no place for them to judge it. At least people who work in fashion love what they do. You don't have to love the food industry to work at a restaurant. But you have to love fashion to work for Anna Wintour, otherwise you will get stepped on (by 6-inch Louboutin's of course).



8. Why did you choose the name Enamor?
Well "enamor" was actually a vocabulary word that I learned a year ago. I initially wanted to name my magazine "Charm," but it seemed a bit cliche. Then I automatically thought of enamor, which is a synonym for charm. Most people thought I chose this name because if you take the last three letters of enamor and switch them with the first three, it spells Morena. That wasn't intentional, but when it was brought to my attention, it only made the name more clever.



9. What are your goals for Enamor?
I would like Enamor to be inspiring. This first issue is very atypical for a fashion magazine. Taylor was right, I'd like to push myself out of the box a bit more.



10. Is there anything else you would like to add?
I would just like to say that I'm well aware of the fact that Enamor is just a compilation of pretty pictures and witty words. What makes us different from other magazines is the fact that we don't give the illusion of perfection. I don't know if you noticed, but there's something very human about our magazine. We're accessible.



If you check out Morena's blog, Too Haute To Handle, you will discover she has a fabulous giveaway to coincide with the premiere of Enamor. Definitely check it out! If you want to order a print copy of the magazine, check out Enamor's website.

What I find amazing is that Morena is still exceeding any expectations. She has also recently launched Telluric Season, a science and nature based magazine that breaches into philosophy.

Now go check out Enamor! :)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Everything looks perfect from far away


I wish...


I wish I had long legs.



I wish I could go to the beach.



I wish I had more confidence.



I wish I was a little more glamorous.



I wish I had money to burn.



I wish I had a sister.



I wish I took more risks.



I wish I was a little more wild.



I wish I had a maid.



I wish I could eat junk food all day and never gain a pound.



I wish I could travel around the world with my best friend.



I wish I could fly away.



But most of all I wish I didn't wish for any of these things. Because then my life would be perfect.