Wednesday, June 10, 2009

I'm a Kate Moss mess




I am stuck in a funk and I need to get out.
Like, right now.

It seems my winter blues have turned into spring blues and now they are alarmingly close to becoming summer blues. I must not let this happen.

Summer is too bright and cheerful and warm and happy for me to be feeling so glum.

What's even worse is that I don't care about what I look like anymore. I looked in the mirror three days ago and screamed.

I am a wreck.

My gorgeous designer summer dresses are still packed away. I haven't even touched my Jimmy Choos or Kate Spades in ages.

Today I went to work wearing my boyfriend's gigantic button down white long-sleeve shirt and a pair of torn blue jeans. I also wore his watch. I had huge dark circles under my eyes and I was so dazed, I forgot to brush my hair.

My hair looked like this (not kidding):



Sure, my look sounds very Kate Moss, but remember, I went like this to WORK.

My editor took me aside and (to my horror) told me about our company's counseling program.

Unfortunately, I can't afford to go. It's very sad.

I think I just need to get my act together. Start going to the gym and get my blood pumping. Stop drinking so much (four nights in a row, woke up to find an empty bottle of Chianti on my night stand), and quit being so dazed.

I swear the days just go by in a blur. Sometimes I will just sit somewhere and stare into space and not care about anyone or anything. Because nothing matters.

I wish I had money. I think shopping would cure my blues...

20 comments:

Morena G.Y. said...

Jennifer, I think it's time for me to intervene. Do not go shopping. It will not make your problems go away. You told me once that "we can't be happy all the time." Well I now believe that that's true.

I just really hope you feel better and I think this is definitely just a phase that shall soon become a part of your past. You're too great of a person to "stop caring." Remember, everything DOES matter. Life Matters. You matter.

Please, always keep that hope, and make sure you don't lose your lovely spirit. Too many people care about you. If anything, don't let go of your hope.

Much much love.
-Morena <3

Morena G.Y. said...

Aww I missed you very much too.

And you're welcome. It's not like I'm doing you a favor by "supporting" you. You're just too amazing for me to just let this go like it's nothing. I care about what happens to you.

-Good idea by the way. Definitely exercise. It gives you endorphins remember? :)

So is there anything in particular bothering you?

♥ fashion chalet said...

Great Kate :)
and I will keep pushing on with Tudors, if only for King Henry ;)



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Damsels said...

oo summer blues are the wrose kind becuz everyone else is so happy

it sucks

i feel you on the money situation and reading all the blogs makeds it worse czu i feel like every one is constantly getting new things and i cantWe Were Damsels

hrh_cesc said...

I saw "Kate Moss" and was like YAY! Then I saw "mess" and my face looked like this :(

Summer blues suck. And as for the hair, I think the bedhead look is quite chic...

We all have those moments. I guess life can't be one big pool of happiness. We have to go through all those angst-ridden days to appreciate the good ones so just hold on!

xoxo
Cesc

yiqin; said...

I totally loe her. She's really an icon!

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♥ fashion chalet said...

OK, so last night I hunkered down and finished episode 1 and then watched epsiode 2.. I think it's fair to say I'm hooked thanks for the push. And yes, at least two of the guys are hot.. (Charles and King Henry, obv.) lol. I kinda have a weird crush on ... Thomas too! ;)



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Savvy Mode SG said...

get yourself into a routine and exercise often help me getting over blue spells. : )

Adela said...

love that first picture!

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Anonymous said...

Well, we all suck sometimes... what to do... really enjoyed reading your blog. I come from a similar family where everything has to be their way, your dad sort of reminds me of my mum!!!! Hang in there... don't shop if you can't pay for it!!!!!

La Femme Chic said...

Agreed. Go to the gym. Unpack your summer dresses. Step into a pair of Jimmy Choos. Upbeat music helps so does cleaning (I'm not really a fan of cleaning) but removing clutter, organizing papers, recycling things that just take up space helped me a lot. It's like this cleansing process.

You are fabulous. Don't let this funk make you doubt that- this too shall pass.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the support!

Here's a link to a pdf version of their pub. The article isn't my best work, but it'll do. Their website is having some trouble though.

http://www.chinagrooves.com/PDF/cgmagazine.pdf

I hope you get out of your funk soon. I did some counseling with the Star's program. I remember the first four sessions were free. It was a big help. Take care!

-Michael

Morena G.Y. said...

Jennifer I emailed you back.
Also...new outfit post by Morena! ;)

michellehendra said...

great shot! really. really. u're gorgeous! :)

michellehendra said...

and btw, i'm supporting you.. whatever that is.. sounds like you're in a trouble, huh? :( wish u luck!

Imogen said...

I'm sorry to hear you have been feeling this way. I definately know the feeling. I normally go shopping to make myself feel better but I don't think its the answer. Although I think its good in way because it allows you to treat yourself. I think your an amazing person, I really like getting to know you and your blog is fabulous.

Fashion Moment said...

I love Kate on those photos.

FM~FP~AF

miky said...

i love the photo in the bath

Stacy said...

I can only wish I looked as great as Kate Moss when I was in a funk.