Journalist. Mother. Bunny enthusiast. Pop culture junkie.

Journalist. Mother. Bunny enthusiast. Pop culture junkie.

Monday, January 25, 2010

...and I'm back.

Thank you to everyone for being so supportive and kind to me during this horrible time. The only reason I am surviving right now is because of friends like you.

I'm sorry for being MIA the past week. I've just been so depressed and needed to take a break from blogging to collect my thoughts.

The next two months are going to be extremely difficult because finding a job right now in this economy is practically impossible. I might have to move back home if I don't find anything and that make me very nervous. It took me a very long time to get the courage to leave home two years ago. It was a physically abusive and mentally abusive environment.

On a happier note, a lot of my blogging friends have been bestowing all sorts of awards upon me the past week. How cool is that?!

My sweet friend Sandy, from Getting Fit and Loving It, gave me the Over The Top Award. She is such a beautiful person and a great inspiration to me. Please check out her blog!

The OTT award comes with the following survey. It must be filled out using one word for each.

1. Where is your cell phone? desk

2. Your hair? long

3. Your mother? work

4. Your father? driving

5. Your favorite food? hummus

6. Your dream last night? tornado

7. Your favorite drink? Coke

8. Your dream/goal? happiness

9. What room are you in? bedroom

10. Your hobby? blogging

11. Your fear? poor

12. What do you want to be in 6 years? successful

13. Where were you last night? home

14. Something you aren't? mean

15. Muffins? blueberry

16. Wish list item? job

17. Where did you grow up? midwest

18. Last thing you did? eat

19. What are you wearing? pajamas

20. Your TV? big

21. Your pets? bird

22. Your friends? awesome

23. Your life? frustrating

24. Your mood? nervous

25. Missing someone? always

26. Vehicle? Toyota

27. Something you're not wearing? shoes

28. Your favorite store? F21

29. Your favorite color? pink

30. When was the last time you laughed? Saturday

31. Last time you cried? yesterday

32. Your best friend? pretty

33. One place where I go over and over again? library

34. One person who emails me regularly? editor

35. Favorite place to eat? Chipotle

I'd like to pass this award on to the following ten blogs:

1. tic tac tomato
2. The Little Violet Dress
3. Carrie Bradshaw Made Me Do It
4. The Redhead Fashionista
5. Mouthwash
6. Leah
7. ballerina'sclosetobsession
8. The Trendy Fashionista
9. A Daisy Chain Dream
10. Audrey Allure

One of the most fabulous bloggers I know, Nikosmommy, awarded me with the following two awards.

I am giving the Best Blog Award to these following five blogs:

1. Life in Quotations
2. Getting Fit and Loving It
3. Melanie's Randomness
4. HiFashion
5. Cafe Fashionista

I am giving the Beautiful Blogger award to the following five blogs:

1. Excessive Idiosyncrasy
2. Tales of a Wondering Star
3. Inspiration in Italy
4. The Couture Cookie
5. Girl Whimsy

I also received the Happy 101 award from the lovely Imogen at Tia Cherie. She has been one of my closest blogging friends for the past year and she is an absolute doll. I feel very lucky to know such an awesome gal!

With this award, the recipient must list ten things which make them happy and pass it along to ten blogs which make them happy.

You can read my ten happy things here.

I am not going to pass this award to ten blogs. I am going to pass this award along to all of YOU because every single one of you make me very happy. xoxo!


Leia said...

Hoping that you have the strength and courage to face what life is throwing at you! And really, really hoping that you get a job soon.

Thank you for passing on an award to us <3 hugs!

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry that you are going through all this right now, but I pray that you will find the strength and courage to get through it. I want you to know if you need anything, I am just a blog post away. :)

Many prayers for you that you will find a new job ASAP.

Big Hugs,

Style Artisan said...

I am believing the best for you. I am a firm believer that when one door closes, another one opens.

Congratulations on all your awards! Even when things are not going your way, isn't it wonderful to have friends to remind you that you are special?

Aquiles Damiron-Alcantara said...

Let's hope for the best. You are too talented to not be hired.


Amelia is... said...

Well done on all the awards, it really is testament to how great a blogger you are. I am inviting fellow bloggers/followers/friends to make secrets to send to me for my 200th secret post, if you are interested (and there is no better time to make secrets than when stressed/upset/depressed/ me) then just comment me back :)

Ela said...

You are loved my love!!! Yay for all the awards, congratulations, honey!

I seriously, truly, honestly believe good things are headed your way, Jen. You certainly deserve it.

Fashion Chalet said...

Awe sweetie,

Are you Ok now? I'm glad to hear from you. Remember, chin up. With every bad day there's 3 good ones. :)



Mint Scented Kerrie said...

Thanks bunches for the award! Buck up kiddo. Everything will work itself out, chin up, and smile plastered.

Style, She Wrote said...

Hang in there! You will totally find something - just stay positive!!

Cafe Fashionista said...

Oh Jen, I truly feel horrible for you. Please don't be depressed. Is there any way that you could move in with Rian or one of your friends? You shouldn't go back to an environment that is physically or mentally abusive. :(

Congratulations on the awards darling - you so deserve them! Thank you for passing them along to me, as well; you're so sweet!! :)

Sandy said...

Thank you so much for the award hunny. You know I love you too. I'll certainly get it posted within the next day or two.

Keep smiling gorgeous!

Sophia said...

You truly deserved those awards. Hang in there!


A Whimsical Girl Named Debbie said...

You are such a sweet girl & I pray all the best for you, my dear! I am so sorry to hear about what's been going on with you. God does not put on us what we cannot bear. And remember, that which does not break you, makes you stronger. We have a lot in common, so any time you want to talk, feel free to email {} me. Comfort comes in knowing you are not alone. Hang in there, sweetie.

P.S., thank you so much for the award. I will post it tomorrow. And, congrats on all your awards! You deserve them all and more!

Fashionista said...

you hang in there..dont forget ur fabulous...they say where one door closes another one opens...keep smilin...xoxomish

Sydnie said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your tough time! I'll be hoping and praying for the best for you, since you have one of my favorite blogs out there! I know you'll be able to get through this, especially with all of us blogging friends backing you up! :)


Barry said...

Hey Jen, I know that in the end things will work out for you and you'll look back on this as a necessary hurdle in your life. It may not be evident now but hang in there.

Thanks for the awards! You're awesome, a beautiful friend and a very very special person to me.


Imogen said...

Congratulations on all the awards you deserve every one of them. Thanks for your lovely comment on my last post. I'm thinking of you and I know things will get better for you even if it may be a slow process things will get there in the end.

Anonymous said...

congrats on your award
i love your blog
keep it up!
thanks for sharing as always
and thanks for your sweet comment, i really do appreciate it!


Leah said...

You will get through this trial Jennifer... you are a genuinely good person and you will be rewarded. Don't lose hope!!!

Congrats on your awards and thanks for sharing the over the top award with me. I truly appreciate it. xoxo

Melanie's Randomness said...

Oh you are just a sweetheart!! Thank u!!!!

I hope your feeling better & you deserve every single award!! Congrats! You are fabulous wherever you are & whatever job you will do.

Nina said...

You deserve these awards and many, many more, Jennifer!

I am praying for you still. I am imagining a seriously swanky new office for you with the accompanying pay check to boot! You must try to remain independent no matter the costs!

Thank you for passing on the OTT award to me. I am deliriously happy!

That Chelsea Girl™ said...

I'm glad the comments uplift your spirits, girl. I understand about the moving back in with parents--I moved out of my parents' house when I was 14 for those specific reasons, and I'll be damned if I have to go back.
I hope that you can find a job to support you soon.
Good luck and take care.

Anonymous said...

My Dearest Jennifer,

I, have actually been to the depression factory myself and I know how you feel.
If you must move back (which is okay to do- I taht quite says " sometimes have to take a step backwards in order to step forwards." - However, Is there a friend house of other family relatives you could stay with? If the last environment you were living in was abusive and painful in any way whatsoever, PLEASE DONT GO!
- Besides all the crasiniess that life puts us through- we always want to make things better not worse chika.
In any case, I am glad you opened about this in your blog- you should never go through your problems alone- I havent yet met you in person yet I would gladly do anything to see you get back into "Fabulous-Mode"!
You're amazing Jen! Your writing is captivating and I would never want lifes experiences to bring you down- Jennifer, I ..your bloger friend will not give up on you- especially since ive been in the same situation.

Please..let me know if there is anyway I can help ;)

Miri said...

Thanks a lot for your sweet comment. I honestly think you are one of the mist inspiring persons in the blogosphere! Hope eerything will be alright for you!


Inspiration in Italy said...

Thank you so much for the award, I am beyond excited to receive it from you! I am wishing you lots of good things in the near future and I am confident that you have so much potential and you will find something soon, meanwhile that you have the strength to get through this tough time in your life.

You deserve all these awards and many many more! hugs and kisses, Jennifer! xoxoxo

Audrey Allure said...

aw thank you for the award !
and congrats on all of yours :)

Couture Carrie said...

Keep your chin up, darling!

Congrats on all your awards :)


Anna Lefler said...

Congrats on all the awards!

Hope you're having a great day...

:-D Anna

gleenn said...

i'm sorry to hear about your plight girl. I really hope you'll find a job soon. I know it makes anyone happier to be independent from home. :)

DiamondsandTulle said...

Thanks for your comment and just reading through your blog. Best of luck on your job hunt! I love the blog for it's honesty.

Robin said...

Thank you so much for the award!

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SogniSorrisi said...

Congrats on all your awards!

Love the Valentine's story you left on my blog!!

Jill VT said...

You seem to have some optimism in your voice now! As uncertain as this time is for you, try to enjoy it a little will find something soon, and then will regret not living it up!!!

Mrs. M. said...

i'm so sorry to hear about losing your job but i certainly hope that this year brings amazing new opportunities for you. i dont want to be all cheesy by quoting that "When a door closes..." saying, but hopefully the end of your old job will bring something even better.

anhesty said...

i hope all will be well for your soon. i know it will be. you are a good person and good things will happen. best of luck!

daisychain said...

sending you much love and strength to get through this tough time xxx

The Trendy Fashionista said...

Thanks for the award, Jennifer!!!
I wish you all the best
and good luck finding a new job.
I'm sure you'll get one.

-The Trendy Fashionista

Missy said...

Ah i feel so sorry for you having to go through all this pain adn suffering. Feel like getting on a plane adn giving you a big hug x i hope things start to pick up for you and if you ever need me i'm always here sweetie x

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Mouthwash said...

I sorry to hear that you have joined us (well, me at least!)in the ranks of unemployment. I truly give you props for keeping it real on your blog. Takes courage! And...I really hope that you won't have to return home. It doesn't sound healthy.

Thank you so much for the blog award!!


Megs said...

So glad you found my blog! Sounds like you are going through a rough patch right now! Let me know if I can do anything... even though we're just blogging friends :)) Isn't this community so wonderful!? Everyone is so amazingly nice! I hope that things look up for you! You are in my prayers!!

Have a WONDERFUL night!

Love Meg

Treacle said...

Congratulations on the blog award and good luck with the job search. I completely understand what it's like when moving back in with your parents is the worst of all possible options. My home environment wasn't the best either. Here's hoping you find something sooner rather than later.

By the way, thanks for visiting my blog. I'd really appreciate it if you'd stop by again to vote in my poll. I'm thinking of making some changes. :-)

Confessions of Lingerie Addict

Inspiration in Italy said...

Hello again, I wrote about you in my recent post! :)

Amelia is... said...

You are so freaking talented it kills me. I'm not sure I could make a secret as cool, but I definitely wanna try! Count me in for the project! :)

The thing I like about the secrets other people make for me is that they look nothing like mine, everyone has a different take on and that is so fascinating. I really look forward to seeing it, just let me know when it is completed (the 200th secret post will be next Friday I think) and we can figure out sending it.

Anonymous said...

You will be fine! no worries!
keep your head up and you will find something!

womens dresses said...

I wish you all the best! Love your blog!

Barry said...

I'm dropping you a line because I'm going through Jennifer withdrawl.

Thinking of you hon, and hoping (if it comes down to it) that you find somewhere you can crash instead of your folks' place.


Jaime said...

Ugh I am so sorry to hear all this! Keep your head up... I know it's tough out there.... There can only be good things now! :)

Jaime said...

Oh ya and when life hands you lemons (or limes), ask for some tequila and salt!! :)

ElodieVeryPetit said...

30. When was the last time you laughed? Saturday

31. Last time you cried? yesterday

So sad u cried earlier than u laughed ! hope u'll laugh every day, every one should !

Zanah said...

Congrats on your award & welcome back :) Mon Mode Blog

kpeach said...

then don't go home! Unemployment is not so awful to live off-keep your head up xx

Ess said...

Congratulation on the awards.

Thanks for stopping by my blog. I love those boots! I can't believe I had them for a whole season and didn't wear them.

The Owl's Closet said...

hi, jennifer, thanks for ur comment:) i hope ure feeling a bit better today and u're most welcome:)

Chelsea said...

I'm so sorry for all that's going on for you right now. I'll be sending you positive thoughts and all the luck I can muster :)

Melanee said...

Oh, to move back in with the parents... I moved out when I was 18, and supported myself completely through college. Graduated, moved to another state to find my birthmother. My mother begged me to come live with the family in an entirely different state. There were still five young children at home. I had no money. I was in a depression. Hadn't found my birthmother. All my college friends had moved away, and my mom wanted me, right?

So I went after five years of living on my own, completely independent.

It was probably one of the hardest times of my life moving back there, for the same reasons you mentioned in your family situation. BUT, guess what happened?

Okay, so my mom was furious with me because I went out on Valentine's instead of staying home and doing the laundry before her company came. When I arrived home, she had a note for me, telling me I was a bad example of disobedience and that she was kicking me out in two days.

I was shocked. Trying so hard to be "good" and loving. My boyfriend, who lived in a different state, came to get me and take me to his state. (I didn't want him to think I was following him around, so I always lived away from him, lol. A pretty strong feminist streak).

SO... Within of few months of living there, I met my future husband, who I am entirely smitten with to this day.

I look back upon that entire turn of events in amazement and WOW. What gifts lie in store we just can't see... (And due credit to my mother, she admitted years later to being in a really bad place).

You will be okay. It is really quite an experience to move back home into those circumstances. You are a different person now, and if you go, you will be able to exercise your new skills there, and learn stuff. Not always "yay, how fun is this" stuff, but good stuff nonetheless.

Keep us posted. I'm here totally rooting for you, girl.

Melanee said...

P.S. By all means, if another opportunity opens up for you to move somewhere else, do it. :)

Michael Kan said...

Hey Bhargava, real sorry to hear about the job. But I'm sure you'll find something, and I bet it'll better than what you were doing at the Star. Take care!

yoli said...

you will be better... you'll see...

michellehendra said...

aww.. thanks for sharing. :)


Robin said...

Oh, I feel silly! I gave you the Best Blogger award on my blog, and I see you already have it! Well, doubly deserved, anyway. :)

Ann said...

Something wonderful is going to come your way soon. I can feel it! (Then you can write about your feelings now and all your experiences... then it will be turned into a book... then it will become a movie... then ... )

Anonymous said...

congrats on your award!
love your blog, keep it up
thanks for sharing as always
and thanks for your lovely comments, it means the world to me!


Etrapar said...

congrats for your award...and darling you love pink so how could your life have another color? ^.^

Organic Meatbag said...

well, it sounds like you deserved those awards...sorry about the joblessness...things will get better :)

betz said...

Jen, I am sorry to hear about what happened. I hope you'll find courage in this situation. I, too, is facing employment problem. It's tough. But we should tougher. All things work for good. God has better plans.

Btw, I see it's raining awards here. I also left you an award on my blog, an award you already received, but hey, one more happy 101 award won't hurt right? check it out?


Fashion Court said...

congrats on your awards darling! xo

OceanDreams said...

Glad your spirits are a bit better - hang in there and congrats on the awards! Hope your boy has been there for you too during this hard time, xo!

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Couture Cookie said...

Oh, thank you so much for the award, sweetie! I am very flattered. :)

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